08.26.09

Wow – I need to learn to update more, but I guess if I updated daily my blogs would be short, ha!

Well last Friday was my 10 year wedding anniversary! 10 years! I remember it like it was yesterday really. The night before we were going to have a small rehearsal dinner, pizza and beer at our house, but a storm changed that idea. After we had our rehearsal at the church, where D and I had a fight – too funny, he went to his sister’s house with R and I went to my moms with J. The next morning was the day…August 21, 1999…the storm had knocked out power to the church, which was back on that day, but the church itself was HOT and the back wasn’t. My step-brother officiated our marriage and D told him, I don’t care what you have to cut out – just get to the important part – It’s hot! He’s funny. The reception was a blast – my 6 year old son, R, was a big hit – dancing…and 10 years later at his 16th bday party was no different. We spent our honeymoon in Atlantic City – I won $1000 our first full night there and D won $500 on his birthday, which was the 24th.

Mom, D, Me, Dad top row (l to r), J, Sis, R bottom row (l to r) 08.21.99

D and I went out to Havana’s for dinner – IT WAS GOOD! We had scallops in a pineapple sauce for an appetizer, I had the grilled salmon and he had a beef dinner and we were stuffed. It was very good, and then we went to Dairy Queen for Blizzard’s… ha!

Saturday we took the kids to BG and had a blast – even in the rain. Then on Sunday we went to WC and that was fun, but I was pooped by 5pm and we came home and relaxed.

Monday D and J spent D’s birthday looking for a car – we finally got 1 – 2005 Chevy Malibu – HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

Well Friday (8.28.09) I am having oral surgery done – SCARED! I guess I got the crappy part of the gene pool from my parents when it comes to the teeth and gums. Thanks Mom & Dad! It’s all good though, because after this is done, I will be done and just have to get over my fear of dentist and go every 3 months. Funny – I yell at J and R about their teeth and take them to the dentist, blah, blah…speaking of – R needs braces – BUT his wisdom teeth are growing horizontally – GREAT! Why take him to the orthodontist if his wisdom teeth are growing in wrong – who knows. I will make his consult appointment for September – need to get over the price tag shock of my dental needs first…

I need to update my other 2 blogs (yes I have 3…don’t ask…ha!)

xoxo

Drama free…

Nothing like a drama free weekend…

It was great…no issues…felt wonderful.

Hiatus from FB – that is what I’m taking. I posted something on FB this morning about it…I feel I spend WAY too much time on FB, so I’m going to take a break…even twitter, ha! *oops just posted a comment on FB, ha!*

I need to concentrate on other things going on, rather than posting on FB. J and R will be starting school in about…3 weeks and they need to get things together and get house together…

I need start on their rooms, painting, etc…also my ‘office’ I need to redo it NOW. I want to paint it, get a new desk, throw stuff away, put up pictures, etc…if I start tonight, I might be done by the end of December, ha! Kidding…I want to be done by end of September…

I need to get my bathroom and my wall fixed too – UGH! But right now we need to get another vehicle that should be fun…hopefully we don’t have to get one…to many issues to get a new one, well used, but new to us.

Well…off for now…

xoxo

weekend plans…

friday…
J pitching practice RAIN
make signs for raffles

saturday…
J VAC practice/pitching
nails done
VAC spaghetti dinner ($10 all you can eat-sweet deal)
deck night

sunday…
BG or WC

I want to…

There are some things I’d like to do, realistically… I had a bucket list posted somewhere else and there were something’s on that list that were so far out of reach, so now I'm doing an I want to…list.

I want to...be the one who makes home cooked meals
I want to...start working out for an hour 5 days a week
I want to...keep the house tidy all the time
I want to...go back to church
I want to...spend more time with family
I want to...take more pictures of random things
I want to...try to find a little "me time"
I want to...start reading more books
I want to...learn to appreciate music more
I want to...take small get-aways
I want to…be strong for my kids
I want to…be able to laugh at stupid stuff
I want to…be able to walk away
I want to…pamper myself once a month

more I want to…'s to follow

14 Aug 09

I finally realized that after almost 37 years on earth, that I need to grow up – what a concept. My mother always told me that the best therapy is to write down my feelings; well that is what this blog is going to be about. I have 2 others, but this one will be opened to the public, or whoever feels like reading it. I have 1 that is only opened to a select few, and there I will post what I don’t want the entire world to know about. The other one, is 100% private, for now, it’s about my journey to becoming healthy. There are some things in my life I wish to keep private, that is why the 3 blogs…this should be interesting.

Yesterday I sent a mass email to some people in my life, because no matter what has happened in the past that is just that, the past. I’ve realized that life is too short to worry about other peoples miseries, unless for some strange reason it affects me. I am too old for the high school drama, so I’ve decided that I’m going to move on with my life and do good. Not sure what will come of that email, but it’s out there. (see below)

I want to get back into going to church again, just need to get on the ball and go. I think it will benefit me and J and R. I am looking at HT, and I need a sponsor, because I have to be reconfirmed into the church and I think going back to church will help me become a better person. It has never failed in the past when I actually would go to church, it felt that I needed to go at that time, and I say that because I felt that the sermon was written just for me and it would make me feel great when I left. With the changes I’m making in my life, I think adding this to my weekend routine will help.

Now, I’m not going to make this blog about religion, it’s just going to be about things in general. I’m not one to push issues. I have faith, and that is my choice, and I have beliefs that are mine and I’m not pushing them on anyone.

I want this blog to be fun, and different.

xoxo

the email:

Good morning!

This is just an email to let you know, not just you, but others, that I have a new and different outlook on life. I've realized that life is way too short to be hateful, mad, angry, jealous, deceitful, and ugly (in personality, not looks). You don't have to reply, I just want to let you know a few things:

I want you to know that no matter what has happened in the past between us is just that, in the past. The other night I forgave a lot of people who hurt me in the past, and that made me feel so much better, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

A lot of things have happened this year and I am forgetting the bad and I want to start with a new outlook on life.

I do not have a perfect life and I know no one else does, and I'm done with judging people, I am not God, so therefore I can't judge.

I care, I really do, whether you believe me or not. I think I'm a good and decent person and I know I have a big heart and I worry and care too much, that I doubt will change.

Take this email how you want. I'm taking baby steps to starting over and I hope you will take them with me.

LET GO LAUGHING…

Why did I name my newest blog Let Go Laughing…well if you know who Sugarland is and you’ve heard the song “It Happens”, then you know why.

“It Happens”
Ain’t no rhyme or reason
No complicated meanin’
Ain’t no need to over-think it
Let go laughing
Life don’t go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
The irrefutable, indisputable fact is:
It happens.

Life happens and lately it’s been emotionally draining. I'm taking the Let Go Laughing attitude to a whole new level.

It happens. Just let go laughing.