Thursday, December 31, 2009
Countdown is on...
I am so ready for 2010...see ya later 2009...may you RIP! HA! Don't forget my new blog page for 2010... LGL2010 Be safe!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2009 in review
Wow – in 3 days it will be a new year and a new decade! I am shocked that these past 10 years have gone this fast…
This year has been a strange one. I’ve learned a lot this past year and needless to say, I’m going to take what I’ve learned and use it forever.
This year there has been some backstabbing, not only to me but to some important in my life. There has been badmouthing, and what makes me mad about that, is my son was the subject of some of this and that pissed me off to no end. What gives an adult the right to talk about someone else’s child? I am not going to go into detail, but I hope they’ve learned from their mistake. Liars – well…not only was I lied to but some others in my life were as well and it sucks when someone likes right to your face and then expect you to forgive and forget…well I did do some forgiving, but I will never forget, ever. Drama – plain and simple – the drama was surrounded by negative people and I’m glad to say that my drama has been gone since the end of summer and it feels great! I mean there’s been a little – but nothing so dramatic that it is going to piss me off, ha! Let’s see, I’ve had my ex contact me twice - funny! Made it to my 10 year wedding anniversary – lol. Kids made it to the 10th grade… :). Gained 2 new hats, NJROTC treasurer and VAC Secretary. Reconnected with some friends in NC & relived some memories and even reenacted a memory – shaving cream fight! Had a wonderful time at NASLL’s first annual Carni-ball – with some whipped cream too! Made new friends, got rid of some old ones who were a bit negative. Finally told people in my family how I felt and they still don’t get it.
I’m sure there’s more, but my memory sucks, but 2010 is going to be the beginning of a wonderful life for me, took me 37 years to figure out, but finally I did it!
I need to go and I think this is my last post of 2009, so look for me in 2010!
This year has been a strange one. I’ve learned a lot this past year and needless to say, I’m going to take what I’ve learned and use it forever.
This year there has been some backstabbing, not only to me but to some important in my life. There has been badmouthing, and what makes me mad about that, is my son was the subject of some of this and that pissed me off to no end. What gives an adult the right to talk about someone else’s child? I am not going to go into detail, but I hope they’ve learned from their mistake. Liars – well…not only was I lied to but some others in my life were as well and it sucks when someone likes right to your face and then expect you to forgive and forget…well I did do some forgiving, but I will never forget, ever. Drama – plain and simple – the drama was surrounded by negative people and I’m glad to say that my drama has been gone since the end of summer and it feels great! I mean there’s been a little – but nothing so dramatic that it is going to piss me off, ha! Let’s see, I’ve had my ex contact me twice - funny! Made it to my 10 year wedding anniversary – lol. Kids made it to the 10th grade… :). Gained 2 new hats, NJROTC treasurer and VAC Secretary. Reconnected with some friends in NC & relived some memories and even reenacted a memory – shaving cream fight! Had a wonderful time at NASLL’s first annual Carni-ball – with some whipped cream too! Made new friends, got rid of some old ones who were a bit negative. Finally told people in my family how I felt and they still don’t get it.
I’m sure there’s more, but my memory sucks, but 2010 is going to be the beginning of a wonderful life for me, took me 37 years to figure out, but finally I did it!
I need to go and I think this is my last post of 2009, so look for me in 2010!
Monday, December 14, 2009
Long Time No Blog…
Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve posted. Been busy I guess!
Let’s see…since my last post, just been busy with getting ready for the Holiday Season, and playing taxi to the kids!
RJ has been busy with NJROTC stuff at school. He had a drill meet a few weeks ago and I was able to watch it, it was phenomenal! I was very impressed with the drill team. No dropped weapons at all and it was very unique. He was doing wrestling then decided not to continue with it because of NJROTC, which keeps him busy.
Janie has been busy practicing her Cello and they had their Winter Concert last week and it was amazing. She is still involved with softball, but not as much since it is winter time. She finished up with her Cross Country stuff, whew!
Recently Janie drove to the mall and had a little fender bender, nothing bad and it was in the parking lot, so no damage, just some paint trading. She is okay and is back to driving.
Let’s see…oh Family! HA! I have to get this off my chest, just because I’m huge on family and no one in my family understands. I am 1 of 10 cousins, I have 4 who are older, and my older sister and 4 who are younger. I feel like I don’t have any cousins really, and that did upset me for a long time, until recently. I have many people in my life who I consider family. I have always wanted a large family, but I only have my 2 kids, but I’ve become mom to several others and that makes me feel good. I have friends who are close enough to me that I call my sisters/brothers, and my kids can call them aunts/uncles. I just wish that my dad and his siblings would get over whatever their issues are and talk. I would love to have a family reunion and get my aunts and uncle together and their kids and their kids. It would be fun to get to know my younger cousins and maybe show my older cousins that it is okay to claim me, not saying they don’t, but at least acknowledge the fact that I do exist. It’s all good though, like I said before, I have my friends who are more of my family to me!
2010 is around the corner and that means changes for me. I’ve said this 100 times before but this time I mean it. They are good changes, I think. My last post for 2009 will be my changes for 2010 and then I will start my new blog for 2010, http://letgolaughing2010.blogspot.com/. This blog will still be up, because I may have to refer back to it, but I need a fresh start on my blog for 2010!
So for right now, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
Let’s see…since my last post, just been busy with getting ready for the Holiday Season, and playing taxi to the kids!
RJ has been busy with NJROTC stuff at school. He had a drill meet a few weeks ago and I was able to watch it, it was phenomenal! I was very impressed with the drill team. No dropped weapons at all and it was very unique. He was doing wrestling then decided not to continue with it because of NJROTC, which keeps him busy.
Janie has been busy practicing her Cello and they had their Winter Concert last week and it was amazing. She is still involved with softball, but not as much since it is winter time. She finished up with her Cross Country stuff, whew!
Recently Janie drove to the mall and had a little fender bender, nothing bad and it was in the parking lot, so no damage, just some paint trading. She is okay and is back to driving.
Let’s see…oh Family! HA! I have to get this off my chest, just because I’m huge on family and no one in my family understands. I am 1 of 10 cousins, I have 4 who are older, and my older sister and 4 who are younger. I feel like I don’t have any cousins really, and that did upset me for a long time, until recently. I have many people in my life who I consider family. I have always wanted a large family, but I only have my 2 kids, but I’ve become mom to several others and that makes me feel good. I have friends who are close enough to me that I call my sisters/brothers, and my kids can call them aunts/uncles. I just wish that my dad and his siblings would get over whatever their issues are and talk. I would love to have a family reunion and get my aunts and uncle together and their kids and their kids. It would be fun to get to know my younger cousins and maybe show my older cousins that it is okay to claim me, not saying they don’t, but at least acknowledge the fact that I do exist. It’s all good though, like I said before, I have my friends who are more of my family to me!
2010 is around the corner and that means changes for me. I’ve said this 100 times before but this time I mean it. They are good changes, I think. My last post for 2009 will be my changes for 2010 and then I will start my new blog for 2010, http://letgolaughing2010.blogspot.com/. This blog will still be up, because I may have to refer back to it, but I need a fresh start on my blog for 2010!
So for right now, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Weekend...
Well, let's see - my weekend was short...ha! Friday night all I wanted to do was relax on my couch, got home, put on my PJ's and sat on the couch with my blanket and then my phone rings...I thought it was RJ, but instead it was a friend of his. RJ had fell and hit his head at 7-11, so I drove up there, in my PJ's...the ambulance was called and we spent 6 hours at the friggin' hospital...the one I don't like...I wanted RJ to go to CHKD - but noooooooooo - he had to go to the closest one - ugh! Anyway, they did a CT scan - came back normal, the doctor tried moving his neck and it hurt his back, so they did an MRI. He has a protruding disc in lower back, which the doctor stated that it could be from another injury or that night, not sure.
Saturday I did NOTHING! I mean nothing. Never left my house. Sad.
Sunday - I cleaned, did laundry, went to the grocery store, burnt my pizza, had some wine, and watched my Chargers kick some Giants butt!
Such an exciting life I lead.
Saturday I did NOTHING! I mean nothing. Never left my house. Sad.
Sunday - I cleaned, did laundry, went to the grocery store, burnt my pizza, had some wine, and watched my Chargers kick some Giants butt!
Such an exciting life I lead.
Friday, November 6, 2009
The Brats...er...um...I mean The Kids (ha)
Today it’s about my kids…the joys of my life.
Janie
Words to describe her:
Silly
Big heart
Naïve (sometimes is a good thing)
Athletic
Friendly
Softball player
Cellist
RJ
Words to describe him:
Comedian
Strong
Willful
Smart
Lazy
USMC (ugh)
Headstrong
Janie
Silly
Big heart
Naïve (sometimes is a good thing)
Athletic
Friendly
Softball player
Cellist
RJ
Comedian
Strong
Willful
Smart
Lazy
USMC (ugh)
Headstrong
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Friends/Family…
I wasn’t 100% sure what I wanted to write about today...then it hit me…
It’s funny when you get older the meaning of friendship changes from when you were a teenager. There are many people in my life, yes, but would I call them all ‘friends’? Not sure…I mean I talk to all of them, but there are a select few that I can actually count on to be there for me, no matter what. There are a select few that know more about me than my own husband (sad I know…ha, but he can’t know everything).
I have, I guess, different groups of friends, but they are my friends, no matter when I see them. I think of them often, even though I do not see them all the time. I have my daily friends, my softball friends, my ROTC friends, my POLAR PLUNGE friends. I love them all!
Yes - I’m going there and I want to apologize to my family (not like they read this, but just in case they do). My mom’s side of the family is small, just her and my aunt, and my aunt has no biological children of her own. My mom does have step-children, step-grandchildren and step-great grandchildren, but some don’t feel like real family. Now my dad’s side of the family – I’m in the middle. I have cousins who are older and younger than me; therefore I’m stuck in the middle. It’s like I’m either too young to talk to the older cousins or too old to talk to the younger ones. Funny that I have 5 of my cousins on FB, and nothing from them…sad I know. So, I’ve created my own family - they may not be biological, but I consider them my family. I’d like to be close my real family members, but I do not see that happening, so I’ll keep my other family members close! Not sure if it’s because my cousins do not live here, but that shouldn’t matter really, I’m still family.
So, to say the least I have a HUGE family!!!! I love it as well. I love the fact that my kids have people in their lives that they can confide in, if not me. I’m glad they have that and I’m glad to have these people that I care for in their lives…
♥.☺.♫
FRIENDS/FAMILY!
It’s funny when you get older the meaning of friendship changes from when you were a teenager. There are many people in my life, yes, but would I call them all ‘friends’? Not sure…I mean I talk to all of them, but there are a select few that I can actually count on to be there for me, no matter what. There are a select few that know more about me than my own husband (sad I know…ha, but he can’t know everything).
I have, I guess, different groups of friends, but they are my friends, no matter when I see them. I think of them often, even though I do not see them all the time. I have my daily friends, my softball friends, my ROTC friends, my POLAR PLUNGE friends. I love them all!
Yes - I’m going there and I want to apologize to my family (not like they read this, but just in case they do). My mom’s side of the family is small, just her and my aunt, and my aunt has no biological children of her own. My mom does have step-children, step-grandchildren and step-great grandchildren, but some don’t feel like real family. Now my dad’s side of the family – I’m in the middle. I have cousins who are older and younger than me; therefore I’m stuck in the middle. It’s like I’m either too young to talk to the older cousins or too old to talk to the younger ones. Funny that I have 5 of my cousins on FB, and nothing from them…sad I know. So, I’ve created my own family - they may not be biological, but I consider them my family. I’d like to be close my real family members, but I do not see that happening, so I’ll keep my other family members close! Not sure if it’s because my cousins do not live here, but that shouldn’t matter really, I’m still family.
So, to say the least I have a HUGE family!!!! I love it as well. I love the fact that my kids have people in their lives that they can confide in, if not me. I’m glad they have that and I’m glad to have these people that I care for in their lives…
♥.☺.♫
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Blog(s)
Speaking of my ‘private’ blog, there are some post that I can see being available to all, but still a private blog. I read them all and had to laugh, WTH was I thinking that day I wrote some of them, funny!
Going back to post #1 – 2009, My Goals… well some I’ve been able to adhere to…
So…this blog will be ending on 31 Dec 09…but I do have a new one already waiting in the wings… see, when I started this blog, I had to add 2009 to the end of it, cause letgolaughing was taken…so now I had to add 2009 to it, then I thought…well 2009 will be over, so I need one for 2010, so I created it!
Well that’s it for now…I hope to be more productive with this blog. A lot of my post may be random, but hey…that’s me!
also if you have a blog - I'd love to read it...if you don't - think about them - they are fun!
♥.☺.♫
Going back to post #1 – 2009, My Goals… well some I’ve been able to adhere to…
- Healthier – HA – took me 11 months…crazy
- Life – Thanks to FB, I’ve been able to keep in touch w/friends and rekindle some old friendships. Also I mentioned to get rid of the negative people in my life – let’s see – 1/2 way there- ha, seriously, the negativity that was possessing my life has either left on their own will, or I’m actually not entertaining the idea to speak to them like I use to…confused? Good! ha
- Photos – oh yeah…visit fotosbysteff.blogspot.com (need to upload most recent pics)
So…this blog will be ending on 31 Dec 09…but I do have a new one already waiting in the wings… see, when I started this blog, I had to add 2009 to the end of it, cause letgolaughing was taken…so now I had to add 2009 to it, then I thought…well 2009 will be over, so I need one for 2010, so I created it!
Well that’s it for now…I hope to be more productive with this blog. A lot of my post may be random, but hey…that’s me!
also if you have a blog - I'd love to read it...if you don't - think about them - they are fun!
♥.☺.♫
Wondering...
I really would like to know who actually reads this blog? I see that I have a few stalkers, er…um…I mean followers, but I wonder when I do post on FB, MS, etc., who actually reads this?
I started blogging 21 Dec 08, and that blog is private. I started venting and being real personal on it and chose not to have that public, so right now and forever its private. I haven’t posted to that blog since 5 Aug 09…
Anyway, just wondering if people actually read this thing or not, ha! If you do, leave me a note…
♥.☺.♫
I started blogging 21 Dec 08, and that blog is private. I started venting and being real personal on it and chose not to have that public, so right now and forever its private. I haven’t posted to that blog since 5 Aug 09…
Anyway, just wondering if people actually read this thing or not, ha! If you do, leave me a note…
♥.☺.♫
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
03 Nov 09 - ELECTION DAY!
Okay, so I've been slackin' again. Not too much has been going on since 19 Oct, just that I'm a year older and I had the flu - not the piggy kind either - ha! I had a good birthday, nothing special, but I'm alive and I have my family, so that is something special. I've done pretty well with my 'gift' to myself...let's see
Healthy - I have started walking and drinking water and etc...
Live each day - well I just do...never know what could happen
Happiness - so far so good - no complaints
Love - enough said :)
The forgiving of people - well I can tell you this, some people who are in my life have changed and not for the good really. Some of the things people have done (not kids...I'm talking GROWN people) has really made me look at them in a different way and makes me realize, I'm more grown then they are. It doesn't affect me personally, but it just makes me think that I need to get the negative out of my life, but these people have taken it upon themselves to do that on their own.
Well today is Election Day and let me tell you, I'm a bit disappointed...why - well back in November I stood in line for 2 hours to vote for President and today, I walked right in - do these people realize that VA is voting for a new Governor????
Anyway - J and R are doing well in school. They are waiting for Thanksgiving Break...silly kids, they will be in school forever - ha! D just found out he's going to a Redskins/Saints game in December and boy is he excited - no he's not a Skins Fan, he's a Saints Fan and let me tell you he rubs it in that they are undefeated! GOD HELP ME!
J didn't make districts for CC, she hurt her knee and then added 4 minutes on her time, but she stuck with it and we are proud of her. R is waiting for his first drill meet for NJROTC, so am I, I want to see what this school can do!
I may be ahead of myself, but I like to plan ahead, I want to have a St. Patrick's Day Party at my house after the OV Parade, and I can't wait! I'm a little early, about 4 months, but these things take time to plan!!!!
Well I just thought I'd post something short, just so you know I'm alive!!!!
♥.☺.♫
Healthy - I have started walking and drinking water and etc...
Live each day - well I just do...never know what could happen
Happiness - so far so good - no complaints
Love - enough said :)
The forgiving of people - well I can tell you this, some people who are in my life have changed and not for the good really. Some of the things people have done (not kids...I'm talking GROWN people) has really made me look at them in a different way and makes me realize, I'm more grown then they are. It doesn't affect me personally, but it just makes me think that I need to get the negative out of my life, but these people have taken it upon themselves to do that on their own.
Well today is Election Day and let me tell you, I'm a bit disappointed...why - well back in November I stood in line for 2 hours to vote for President and today, I walked right in - do these people realize that VA is voting for a new Governor????
Anyway - J and R are doing well in school. They are waiting for Thanksgiving Break...silly kids, they will be in school forever - ha! D just found out he's going to a Redskins/Saints game in December and boy is he excited - no he's not a Skins Fan, he's a Saints Fan and let me tell you he rubs it in that they are undefeated! GOD HELP ME!
J didn't make districts for CC, she hurt her knee and then added 4 minutes on her time, but she stuck with it and we are proud of her. R is waiting for his first drill meet for NJROTC, so am I, I want to see what this school can do!
I may be ahead of myself, but I like to plan ahead, I want to have a St. Patrick's Day Party at my house after the OV Parade, and I can't wait! I'm a little early, about 4 months, but these things take time to plan!!!!
Well I just thought I'd post something short, just so you know I'm alive!!!!
♥.☺.♫
Monday, October 19, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Tomorrow is my 37th birthday, it’s not a significant one, but still it’s my birthday! I have decided that I deserve to give myself a gift…and that gift is…LIFE!
Yes life. I know I’m alive right now, but I want to be healthier, I want to live each day as it’s my last one (depressing for a gift, but…), I want to be happy, I want to love, I want to forgive, but of course not forget.
Let’s start with the first part of my gift, being healthy. I have made a choice to lose weight. I am a big girl, no doubt about that. I’ve been a big girl most of my life and now, after all this time, I want to change it…FOR ME! My gift to me! I understand that it will not happen overnight (damn the luck), and I have to work hard at it and I’m willing to do that, and starting on my birthday is a good thing, it gives me motivation, which I haven’t had in a long time. I also lack willpower…but I will do this! I also need to quit smoking…that is so hard, but I think I can do it…
Live each day as its my last – well that is a no brainer. I will tell people who I love that I love them, I will hold nothing back (this will be hard). I shouldn’t care what others think of me, they aren’t me, they don’t run my life, I do. If someone doesn’t want to be my friend, oh well, see ya, I don’t need ya! I know who my true friends are, compared to the ones who are well just in my life. I know who will be there for me when I need them. I know who will stand behind me when I mess up, who will support me when I need it. I know a lot of people, this is true, but there are a small group of people that I can truly say are my true friends.
Happiness – I think I’m pretty much happy with my life, with a few changes I’ll be happier. I may lead a boring life, but I have teenagers who keep me going and I’m here for them. My life is about me, but right now I have to raise 2 kids and set them in the right direction for their future, not mine. I do not want to live vicariously through them, as some people do with their kids. I’ve lived my teen years, though they may not have been the best, but I’ve lived it, so I need to let mine live theirs without interfering but so much. They need to make mistakes and be able to come to me and ask for help. This past summer I learned a lot about teenagers these days and let me tell you, teenagers back in the day weren’t as vicious, self-centered, spoiled or just rude. Teenagers these days feel like people owe them something – WE DON’T OWE YOU NOTHING! You haven’t lived long enough to deserve anything. Teenaged girls are the worst…just had to throw that in there! So with my gift of happiness to myself, I’m out of my kids drama – I have been for awhile and it actually feels good not to know what their friends are or aren’t doing – because right now – I DO NOT CARE!
Love – I have been married for a little of 10 years and it’s had it’s ups and downs, but it’s been great! David is wonderful. We had a great talk Friday night and something’s came out that made me realize he does love me! I want to show people that I truly love that I do love them, just the small things people do make others smile and that is my goal!
Here we go…In a previous blog I mentioned that I forgave people who have hurt me in the past. I believe in 2nd chances, but that is it, no more after that. Some people think I forgive to easily, well I’ve been alive for this long and people have done some awful things to me in the past and I chose to forgive, so everyone I know has a 2nd chance. This was written in August 2009, and some people blew their 2nd chance already, they may not know it or not, but they have, and I’m not giving them a 3rd. As the saying goes…Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. No fooling me three times. I have too much to live for; I have a lot to offer to my friends, but if they don’t see it, its on them.
That is what I want to give myself for my birthday!
♥.☺.♫
Yes life. I know I’m alive right now, but I want to be healthier, I want to live each day as it’s my last one (depressing for a gift, but…), I want to be happy, I want to love, I want to forgive, but of course not forget.
Let’s start with the first part of my gift, being healthy. I have made a choice to lose weight. I am a big girl, no doubt about that. I’ve been a big girl most of my life and now, after all this time, I want to change it…FOR ME! My gift to me! I understand that it will not happen overnight (damn the luck), and I have to work hard at it and I’m willing to do that, and starting on my birthday is a good thing, it gives me motivation, which I haven’t had in a long time. I also lack willpower…but I will do this! I also need to quit smoking…that is so hard, but I think I can do it…
Live each day as its my last – well that is a no brainer. I will tell people who I love that I love them, I will hold nothing back (this will be hard). I shouldn’t care what others think of me, they aren’t me, they don’t run my life, I do. If someone doesn’t want to be my friend, oh well, see ya, I don’t need ya! I know who my true friends are, compared to the ones who are well just in my life. I know who will be there for me when I need them. I know who will stand behind me when I mess up, who will support me when I need it. I know a lot of people, this is true, but there are a small group of people that I can truly say are my true friends.
Happiness – I think I’m pretty much happy with my life, with a few changes I’ll be happier. I may lead a boring life, but I have teenagers who keep me going and I’m here for them. My life is about me, but right now I have to raise 2 kids and set them in the right direction for their future, not mine. I do not want to live vicariously through them, as some people do with their kids. I’ve lived my teen years, though they may not have been the best, but I’ve lived it, so I need to let mine live theirs without interfering but so much. They need to make mistakes and be able to come to me and ask for help. This past summer I learned a lot about teenagers these days and let me tell you, teenagers back in the day weren’t as vicious, self-centered, spoiled or just rude. Teenagers these days feel like people owe them something – WE DON’T OWE YOU NOTHING! You haven’t lived long enough to deserve anything. Teenaged girls are the worst…just had to throw that in there! So with my gift of happiness to myself, I’m out of my kids drama – I have been for awhile and it actually feels good not to know what their friends are or aren’t doing – because right now – I DO NOT CARE!
Love – I have been married for a little of 10 years and it’s had it’s ups and downs, but it’s been great! David is wonderful. We had a great talk Friday night and something’s came out that made me realize he does love me! I want to show people that I truly love that I do love them, just the small things people do make others smile and that is my goal!
Here we go…In a previous blog I mentioned that I forgave people who have hurt me in the past. I believe in 2nd chances, but that is it, no more after that. Some people think I forgive to easily, well I’ve been alive for this long and people have done some awful things to me in the past and I chose to forgive, so everyone I know has a 2nd chance. This was written in August 2009, and some people blew their 2nd chance already, they may not know it or not, but they have, and I’m not giving them a 3rd. As the saying goes…Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. No fooling me three times. I have too much to live for; I have a lot to offer to my friends, but if they don’t see it, its on them.
That is what I want to give myself for my birthday!
♥.☺.♫
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Upcoming Plans...
Well busy, busy, busy I am...
Wednesday - J - Cross Country Meet; Me - NJROTC Booster Club Meeting; Me - laundry for weekend; J - Softball Practice
Thursday - Me - Work; J - Softball; Me - laundry, pack
Friday - Me - Work; Me - doctor; All - leave for Raleigh
Saturday - All - Raleigh for 3 softball games
Sunday - All - Raleigh for 2 softball games
I don't even want to look at next week...lol
I enjoy being busy, but WOW...next week is just as full I'm sure...
♥.☺.♫
Wednesday - J - Cross Country Meet; Me - NJROTC Booster Club Meeting; Me - laundry for weekend; J - Softball Practice
Thursday - Me - Work; J - Softball; Me - laundry, pack
Friday - Me - Work; Me - doctor; All - leave for Raleigh
Saturday - All - Raleigh for 3 softball games
Sunday - All - Raleigh for 2 softball games
I don't even want to look at next week...lol
I enjoy being busy, but WOW...next week is just as full I'm sure...
♥.☺.♫
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Strange Day...
WOW...the day is not over, but it has been one strange day. Let me start off by saying, I thought I was pregnant...why, well for the past 2 weeks I was having pregnancy symptoms, and this past weekend, they became more noticeable to me (won't go into detail). Well, I guess what I thought were pregnancy symptoms are new menstrual symptoms, that was the start of it. Then I get a phone call from my husband, and he confessed to something, I was mad, at first, then I couldn't be because he confessed, and then he told me some good news about work. The strangest thing...I have a facebook, who doesn't, and I received a new friend request...from the EX - WTH? It's a long story with him, I am not going into detail about it here, but I laughed when I saw it, I didn't accept or deny, I just sent him a message asking him to email me, we shall see if he does or not. I want to know what his intentions are, I mean I haven't seen him in 15 1/2 years. He did send me a message on FB back in March asking about THE KIDS (love it, he said the kids, not my kids, your kids, or their names, just the kids), well I replied, etc. I mean does he honestly think I'm going to say yes???? He had control of me back then, but 15 years later, I've grown up a little, I have zero feelings for him, so its not like I'm going to just let him back in my life at the drop of a hat. My kids are not his anymore, he gave them up, so he has to wait a few more years until they are 18 to see them, if they want to at that point. He sent the request at 11am, I sent him the message at 1145am, so its just a waiting game now, but I'm not going to sit at my computer and wait...he has NO control over me anymore, how can he?
Ok...later!
♥.☺.♫
Ok...later!
♥.☺.♫
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Friends
You knew it was coming...if you read the previous post.
I've had issues with some people in my life who I thought were my friends, now they are just people in my life. See some of the people did me wrong in one way or another, rather it had been very hurtful or not even worth thinking about, it was still a wrongdoing. One day, back in August, I forgave EVERYONE who ever hurt me and I emailed tons of people a little note stating my new outlook on life.
It goes back to this post. I received some replies, and of course the people who I knew wouldn't reply, didn't. Some responses I received (shortened and no names)...
Loves me and happy about new outlook
Told me how they use to judge people and when something happened to them, they stopped
Has always seen me as a great person
A few I love yous
A few proud of mes
Enjoys our friendship
Said I need a back deck night - hasn't happened...
A few supporters
Funny one - thought I was suicidal/depressed, not funny, funny, but funny (suicide is NOT funny)
Strong person
One person stated they wanted to start anew and forget all the ugly in the past, but funny how the last time I saw this person, they acted like I had the plague...whatever
So...I kind of know where I stand with some people in my life, but I can honestly say I can count on my 1 hand who I can 100% count on...and that is not a bad thing.
Another thing that I've learned - don't put yourself in the middle of drama - that is easy. Most of the drama revolves around teenagers - leave it with them...how are is that? I walk away from crap, if people talk to me about things I don't want to know about, I tell them to stop or I just pretend to listen (great my secret is out, ha)
Anyway, I have a busy evening ahead, so I'll post again soon.
♥.☺.♫
I've had issues with some people in my life who I thought were my friends, now they are just people in my life. See some of the people did me wrong in one way or another, rather it had been very hurtful or not even worth thinking about, it was still a wrongdoing. One day, back in August, I forgave EVERYONE who ever hurt me and I emailed tons of people a little note stating my new outlook on life.
It goes back to this post. I received some replies, and of course the people who I knew wouldn't reply, didn't. Some responses I received (shortened and no names)...
Loves me and happy about new outlook
Told me how they use to judge people and when something happened to them, they stopped
Has always seen me as a great person
A few I love yous
A few proud of mes
Enjoys our friendship
Said I need a back deck night - hasn't happened...
A few supporters
Funny one - thought I was suicidal/depressed, not funny, funny, but funny (suicide is NOT funny)
Strong person
One person stated they wanted to start anew and forget all the ugly in the past, but funny how the last time I saw this person, they acted like I had the plague...whatever
So...I kind of know where I stand with some people in my life, but I can honestly say I can count on my 1 hand who I can 100% count on...and that is not a bad thing.
Another thing that I've learned - don't put yourself in the middle of drama - that is easy. Most of the drama revolves around teenagers - leave it with them...how are is that? I walk away from crap, if people talk to me about things I don't want to know about, I tell them to stop or I just pretend to listen (great my secret is out, ha)
Anyway, I have a busy evening ahead, so I'll post again soon.
♥.☺.♫
09.24.09
NERD
Okay so call me a nerd…I was sitting at J’s school yesterday afternoon (5pm) thinking about this blog…told you – NERD! I was just jotting things down about what I could blog about – since I lead such a blah, bland and boring life, sinceDRAMA is gone (at least for now, but when drama does hit – I post to my private blog).
So, here is a list of things I may blog about, or not:
Kids – always – they are the coolest people in my life right now. They have dreams and goals that I would love to share!
Husband – well…not sure how often I will speak about him since all he does is wok, bowl, work, cook, work, laundry, work, did I mention work. He is a great man, husband and father.
Friends – some are cool, heroes, strange, supportive, have kids who I’d call as mine own, at times. I have some who may think they are my friends, but they are just in my life, is that mean? I mean recently I've forgiven all the people in my life...another blog...hmmmm...
Politics – uh…doubt it – why – well my views are just that…MINE! I don’t like it when people push their views on me, so why would I do it to you? I may, I said may, voice my opinion on a few things – but nothing major. The year there is not a big election – well sort of – Sheriff for the city I live in, which just so happens to be my hubby’s boss – HA – so – VOTE MCCABE!
Music – love all kids of music…it’s soothing.
Randoms – well of course, random things happen during the day, maybe.
If there are other things you’d like to see posted – lemme have it!
♥.☺.♫
Okay so call me a nerd…I was sitting at J’s school yesterday afternoon (5pm) thinking about this blog…told you – NERD! I was just jotting things down about what I could blog about – since I lead such a blah, bland and boring life, since
So, here is a list of things I may blog about, or not:
Kids – always – they are the coolest people in my life right now. They have dreams and goals that I would love to share!
Husband – well…not sure how often I will speak about him since all he does is wok, bowl, work, cook, work, laundry, work, did I mention work. He is a great man, husband and father.
Friends – some are cool, heroes, strange, supportive, have kids who I’d call as mine own, at times. I have some who may think they are my friends, but they are just in my life, is that mean? I mean recently I've forgiven all the people in my life...another blog...hmmmm...
Politics – uh…doubt it – why – well my views are just that…MINE! I don’t like it when people push their views on me, so why would I do it to you? I may, I said may, voice my opinion on a few things – but nothing major. The year there is not a big election – well sort of – Sheriff for the city I live in, which just so happens to be my hubby’s boss – HA – so – VOTE MCCABE!
Music – love all kids of music…it’s soothing.
Randoms – well of course, random things happen during the day, maybe.
If there are other things you’d like to see posted – lemme have it!
♥.☺.♫
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
09.23.09
I haven't posted to my other blog, which is private, in awhile, which is a good thing, that means...DRAMA
I don't mind this one being open, cause if you really wanna know...ask either via post or email me it's that easy, but I'm not sure who all reads this stuff, but I enjoy writing about things.
I have started my fotos.by.steff hobby. If you wanna see, check out fotos.by.steff - I'm having fun. I've only took some of my kids recently, but I think they are good...here is my fav:
I don't mind this one being open, cause if you really wanna know...ask either via post or email me it's that easy, but I'm not sure who all reads this stuff, but I enjoy writing about things.
I have started my fotos.by.steff hobby. If you wanna see, check out fotos.by.steff - I'm having fun. I've only took some of my kids recently, but I think they are good...here is my fav:
I am going to print it out and hang it on my wall - LOVE IT!
I have another blog (i know...WTH...how can I manage 4, 3 blogs), it's not too bad. Like I previous stated, I have one that is private, but the last time I updated that was 08.05.09...I have this one, my fotos one, and then there is the I AM...I CAN...I WILL one. That one, right now, is private, until I feel up to opening it up. It's about my weight, my being unhealthy, etc. I need to become healthy, but anywhoooooooooooooooooooooo...
I had a wonderful conversation with a real close friend last night about my kids. It was fun talking to her about them, because a few hours earlier I was at open house, I know...why do I go to a HS open house...All of R's teachers adore him...they love his personality, yes he has a great one, but it can also be dangerous. He reminds me alot of SD (sperm donar), which I don't care for, but they are the good reminders, not the bad ones. He doesn't have his bad attributes, thank goodness...I'd have to ship him off, so kidding, maybe. Anyway, L and I were talking about J & R, and a few of their friends, and how I adore them (some), and would do anything for them. We came to the conclusin that R is...well a clown, but can be serious at times, lazy, cause he's smart as a whip, but doesn't use his brain much, ha! He has a heart of gold as well. J, well she's finally learning to cut the cord (YAY FOR ME!) She's very sensative and doesn't deal with bad things very well. Just recently a good friend of J's father passed away and J became close with this family and I told her and boy oh boy. I didn't want to tell her, but I had to and it was hard for me to see her cry like that, but she is a strong girl, she will be fine!
Jealous much - well J is going to NYC for spring break 2010...She's going to see 2 of these 3 shows; Lion King, Wicked (we saw this here, but different on broadway), or Shrek, The Musical. She will attend a cast patey with the cast of one of the 2 shows, and will have dinner with them. She will take a guided tour of Lincoln Center and Rockefeller Center. She will also visit Chinatown, Times Square, Central Park and Battery Park...MOM WANTS TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! It will cost me 400$ to chaperone, so I think I will pay the 500$ and let J have the time of her life in NYC!
Enough posting for now...I am going to the middle of nowhere this weekend, so I will post when I return, unless something exciting happens between now and then (doubt it).
♥.☺.♫
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
09.22.09
Wow…September is almost over…Imma slacker – ha!
Been busy with work, kids back in school, J’s softball, R’s ROTC, not feeling the greatest lately – but that’s come to an end – I hope.
I’ve been thinking about stuff that I need to get done around my house – ready for the list…
YARD – I need to learn to love doing yard work – I hate it…I want my yard to look like everyone else’s in my neighborhood. Flowers, bushes, pretty edge, etc. I need to call B and have her help me get started on it.
LIVING ROOM – I need to get rid of the entertainment center. N said she wanted it, but we can’t come up with a way to get it, ha! I just sent her a text, so I hope something soon. D and I got a 56inch TV and the entertainment center is in the way, once that is gone, we can paint the rest of the wall and put the TV where it needs to go. Then I have to figure out where to put all my pictures…great!
J’S ROOM – She’s 16, not 6, so we need to paint it so it looks like a 16 year old lives in that room, not a 6 year old. She wants blue and one part of her wall she wants chalk board paint – neat idea.
R’S ROOM – Well his walls are just white, so he wants to do something funky to his walls, it fits!
BATHROOM – I DISLIKE IT! Need to fix plumbing and get a new bathtub. The plumbing leaks into the wall that is in Dining Room
DINING ROOM – fix the wall.
OTHER – want to finish taking up carpet and finish the hardwood floors underneath. I know we need to fix the floor near the back door. I want siding on the house, also repair my deck. Need to fix molding around front and back door.
House is a work in progress.
It will get done, slowly, but it will get done.
I guess I’ll return to what I was doing…WORK!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
09.01.09
September – YAY! It actually feels like it outside too. It's nice and cool outside, feels wonderful. Look - LOVE THIS...
New month, new me, & new outlook (same outlook as before, but more now than before). I don't want the I don't give a F*** attitude, but I just want to leave the drama to the ones who cause it, know what I mean.
Last night took the kids school shopping and I managed to stay alive and so did they, amazingly. They so want to go back to school, so do I…not that they bother me, but I just want to know that they are doing something constructive.
I think the main reason I want school to start is so that the DRAMA can stop, not saying it won't, but it'll be new drama – ha!!!! But last year wasn't bad, and they'll be so busy with school work and sports and other activities that drama will be no where in sight – we hope.
Well let me get some work done now…ha!
xoxo
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
08.26.09
Wow – I need to learn to update more, but I guess if I updated daily my blogs would be short, ha!
Well last Friday was my 10 year wedding anniversary! 10 years! I remember it like it was yesterday really. The night before we were going to have a small rehearsal dinner, pizza and beer at our house, but a storm changed that idea. After we had our rehearsal at the church, where D and I had a fight – too funny, he went to his sister’s house with R and I went to my moms with J. The next morning was the day…August 21, 1999…the storm had knocked out power to the church, which was back on that day, but the church itself was HOT and the back wasn’t. My step-brother officiated our marriage and D told him, I don’t care what you have to cut out – just get to the important part – It’s hot! He’s funny. The reception was a blast – my 6 year old son, R, was a big hit – dancing…and 10 years later at his 16th bday party was no different. We spent our honeymoon in Atlantic City – I won $1000 our first full night there and D won $500 on his birthday, which was the 24th.
D and I went out to Havana’s for dinner – IT WAS GOOD! We had scallops in a pineapple sauce for an appetizer, I had the grilled salmon and he had a beef dinner and we were stuffed. It was very good, and then we went to Dairy Queen for Blizzard’s… ha!
Saturday we took the kids to BG and had a blast – even in the rain. Then on Sunday we went to WC and that was fun, but I was pooped by 5pm and we came home and relaxed.
Monday D and J spent D’s birthday looking for a car – we finally got 1 – 2005 Chevy Malibu – HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
Well Friday (8.28.09) I am having oral surgery done – SCARED! I guess I got the crappy part of the gene pool from my parents when it comes to the teeth and gums. Thanks Mom & Dad! It’s all good though, because after this is done, I will be done and just have to get over my fear of dentist and go every 3 months. Funny – I yell at J and R about their teeth and take them to the dentist, blah, blah…speaking of – R needs braces – BUT his wisdom teeth are growing horizontally – GREAT! Why take him to the orthodontist if his wisdom teeth are growing in wrong – who knows. I will make his consult appointment for September – need to get over the price tag shock of my dental needs first…
I need to update my other 2 blogs (yes I have 3…don’t ask…ha!)
xoxo
Well last Friday was my 10 year wedding anniversary! 10 years! I remember it like it was yesterday really. The night before we were going to have a small rehearsal dinner, pizza and beer at our house, but a storm changed that idea. After we had our rehearsal at the church, where D and I had a fight – too funny, he went to his sister’s house with R and I went to my moms with J. The next morning was the day…August 21, 1999…the storm had knocked out power to the church, which was back on that day, but the church itself was HOT and the back wasn’t. My step-brother officiated our marriage and D told him, I don’t care what you have to cut out – just get to the important part – It’s hot! He’s funny. The reception was a blast – my 6 year old son, R, was a big hit – dancing…and 10 years later at his 16th bday party was no different. We spent our honeymoon in Atlantic City – I won $1000 our first full night there and D won $500 on his birthday, which was the 24th.
Mom, D, Me, Dad top row (l to r), J, Sis, R bottom row (l to r) 08.21.99
D and I went out to Havana’s for dinner – IT WAS GOOD! We had scallops in a pineapple sauce for an appetizer, I had the grilled salmon and he had a beef dinner and we were stuffed. It was very good, and then we went to Dairy Queen for Blizzard’s… ha!
Saturday we took the kids to BG and had a blast – even in the rain. Then on Sunday we went to WC and that was fun, but I was pooped by 5pm and we came home and relaxed.
Monday D and J spent D’s birthday looking for a car – we finally got 1 – 2005 Chevy Malibu – HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
Well Friday (8.28.09) I am having oral surgery done – SCARED! I guess I got the crappy part of the gene pool from my parents when it comes to the teeth and gums. Thanks Mom & Dad! It’s all good though, because after this is done, I will be done and just have to get over my fear of dentist and go every 3 months. Funny – I yell at J and R about their teeth and take them to the dentist, blah, blah…speaking of – R needs braces – BUT his wisdom teeth are growing horizontally – GREAT! Why take him to the orthodontist if his wisdom teeth are growing in wrong – who knows. I will make his consult appointment for September – need to get over the price tag shock of my dental needs first…
I need to update my other 2 blogs (yes I have 3…don’t ask…ha!)
xoxo
Monday, August 17, 2009
Drama free…
Nothing like a drama free weekend…
It was great…no issues…felt wonderful.
Hiatus from FB – that is what I’m taking. I posted something on FB this morning about it…I feel I spend WAY too much time on FB, so I’m going to take a break…even twitter, ha! *oops just posted a comment on FB, ha!*
I need to concentrate on other things going on, rather than posting on FB. J and R will be starting school in about…3 weeks and they need to get things together and get house together…
I need start on their rooms, painting, etc…also my ‘office’ I need to redo it NOW. I want to paint it, get a new desk, throw stuff away, put up pictures, etc…if I start tonight, I might be done by the end of December, ha! Kidding…I want to be done by end of September…
I need to get my bathroom and my wall fixed too – UGH! But right now we need to get another vehicle that should be fun…hopefully we don’t have to get one…to many issues to get a new one, well used, but new to us.
Well…off for now…
xoxo
It was great…no issues…felt wonderful.
Hiatus from FB – that is what I’m taking. I posted something on FB this morning about it…I feel I spend WAY too much time on FB, so I’m going to take a break…even twitter, ha! *oops just posted a comment on FB, ha!*
I need to concentrate on other things going on, rather than posting on FB. J and R will be starting school in about…3 weeks and they need to get things together and get house together…
I need start on their rooms, painting, etc…also my ‘office’ I need to redo it NOW. I want to paint it, get a new desk, throw stuff away, put up pictures, etc…if I start tonight, I might be done by the end of December, ha! Kidding…I want to be done by end of September…
I need to get my bathroom and my wall fixed too – UGH! But right now we need to get another vehicle that should be fun…hopefully we don’t have to get one…to many issues to get a new one, well used, but new to us.
Well…off for now…
xoxo
Friday, August 14, 2009
weekend plans…
friday…
J pitching practice RAIN
make signs for raffles
saturday…
J VAC practice/pitching
nails done
VAC spaghetti dinner ($10 all you can eat-sweet deal)
deck night
sunday…
BG or WC
make signs for raffles
saturday…
J VAC practice/pitching
nails done
VAC spaghetti dinner ($10 all you can eat-sweet deal)
deck night
sunday…
BG or WC
I want to…
There are some things I’d like to do, realistically… I had a bucket list posted somewhere else and there were something’s on that list that were so far out of reach, so now I'm doing an I want to…list.
I want to...be the one who makes home cooked meals
I want to...start working out for an hour 5 days a week
I want to...keep the house tidy all the time
I want to...go back to church
I want to...spend more time with family
I want to...take more pictures of random things
I want to...try to find a little "me time"
I want to...start reading more books
I want to...learn to appreciate music more
I want to...take small get-aways
I want to…be strong for my kids
I want to…be able to laugh at stupid stuff
I want to…be able to walk away
I want to…pamper myself once a month
more I want to…'s to follow
I want to...be the one who makes home cooked meals
I want to...start working out for an hour 5 days a week
I want to...keep the house tidy all the time
I want to...go back to church
I want to...spend more time with family
I want to...take more pictures of random things
I want to...try to find a little "me time"
I want to...start reading more books
I want to...learn to appreciate music more
I want to...take small get-aways
I want to…be strong for my kids
I want to…be able to laugh at stupid stuff
I want to…be able to walk away
I want to…pamper myself once a month
more I want to…'s to follow
14 Aug 09
I finally realized that after almost 37 years on earth, that I need to grow up – what a concept. My mother always told me that the best therapy is to write down my feelings; well that is what this blog is going to be about. I have 2 others, but this one will be opened to the public, or whoever feels like reading it. I have 1 that is only opened to a select few, and there I will post what I don’t want the entire world to know about. The other one, is 100% private, for now, it’s about my journey to becoming healthy. There are some things in my life I wish to keep private, that is why the 3 blogs…this should be interesting.
Yesterday I sent a mass email to some people in my life, because no matter what has happened in the past that is just that, the past. I’ve realized that life is too short to worry about other peoples miseries, unless for some strange reason it affects me. I am too old for the high school drama, so I’ve decided that I’m going to move on with my life and do good. Not sure what will come of that email, but it’s out there. (see below)
I want to get back into going to church again, just need to get on the ball and go. I think it will benefit me and J and R. I am looking at HT, and I need a sponsor, because I have to be reconfirmed into the church and I think going back to church will help me become a better person. It has never failed in the past when I actually would go to church, it felt that I needed to go at that time, and I say that because I felt that the sermon was written just for me and it would make me feel great when I left. With the changes I’m making in my life, I think adding this to my weekend routine will help.
Now, I’m not going to make this blog about religion, it’s just going to be about things in general. I’m not one to push issues. I have faith, and that is my choice, and I have beliefs that are mine and I’m not pushing them on anyone.
I want this blog to be fun, and different.
xoxo
the email:
Good morning!
This is just an email to let you know, not just you, but others, that I have a new and different outlook on life. I've realized that life is way too short to be hateful, mad, angry, jealous, deceitful, and ugly (in personality, not looks). You don't have to reply, I just want to let you know a few things:
I want you to know that no matter what has happened in the past between us is just that, in the past. The other night I forgave a lot of people who hurt me in the past, and that made me feel so much better, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
A lot of things have happened this year and I am forgetting the bad and I want to start with a new outlook on life.
I do not have a perfect life and I know no one else does, and I'm done with judging people, I am not God, so therefore I can't judge.
I care, I really do, whether you believe me or not. I think I'm a good and decent person and I know I have a big heart and I worry and care too much, that I doubt will change.
Take this email how you want. I'm taking baby steps to starting over and I hope you will take them with me.
Yesterday I sent a mass email to some people in my life, because no matter what has happened in the past that is just that, the past. I’ve realized that life is too short to worry about other peoples miseries, unless for some strange reason it affects me. I am too old for the high school drama, so I’ve decided that I’m going to move on with my life and do good. Not sure what will come of that email, but it’s out there. (see below)
I want to get back into going to church again, just need to get on the ball and go. I think it will benefit me and J and R. I am looking at HT, and I need a sponsor, because I have to be reconfirmed into the church and I think going back to church will help me become a better person. It has never failed in the past when I actually would go to church, it felt that I needed to go at that time, and I say that because I felt that the sermon was written just for me and it would make me feel great when I left. With the changes I’m making in my life, I think adding this to my weekend routine will help.
Now, I’m not going to make this blog about religion, it’s just going to be about things in general. I’m not one to push issues. I have faith, and that is my choice, and I have beliefs that are mine and I’m not pushing them on anyone.
I want this blog to be fun, and different.
xoxo
the email:
Good morning!
This is just an email to let you know, not just you, but others, that I have a new and different outlook on life. I've realized that life is way too short to be hateful, mad, angry, jealous, deceitful, and ugly (in personality, not looks). You don't have to reply, I just want to let you know a few things:
I want you to know that no matter what has happened in the past between us is just that, in the past. The other night I forgave a lot of people who hurt me in the past, and that made me feel so much better, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
A lot of things have happened this year and I am forgetting the bad and I want to start with a new outlook on life.
I do not have a perfect life and I know no one else does, and I'm done with judging people, I am not God, so therefore I can't judge.
I care, I really do, whether you believe me or not. I think I'm a good and decent person and I know I have a big heart and I worry and care too much, that I doubt will change.
Take this email how you want. I'm taking baby steps to starting over and I hope you will take them with me.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
LET GO LAUGHING…
Why did I name my newest blog Let Go Laughing…well if you know who Sugarland is and you’ve heard the song “It Happens”, then you know why.
“It Happens”
Ain’t no rhyme or reason
No complicated meanin’
Ain’t no need to over-think it
Let go laughing
Life don’t go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
The irrefutable, indisputable fact is:
It happens.
Ain’t no rhyme or reason
No complicated meanin’
Ain’t no need to over-think it
Let go laughing
Life don’t go quite like you planned it
We try so hard to understand it
The irrefutable, indisputable fact is:
It happens.
Life happens and lately it’s been emotionally draining. I'm taking the Let Go Laughing attitude to a whole new level.
It happens. Just let go laughing.
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